Stories never stay the same. The main points remain, while the way in which the story is told, sometimes shifts. Sometimes the details are altered, even at the slightest. Parts are enhanced depending on the time in which they are told (episodic memory tends to do that as time drifts away from the actual events). Sometimes perspectives change, or the audience changes.
This is one of those times.
The origin of this blog occurred without purpose. It was just something created with the only intention for the purpose to be discovered somewhere along the way. Four and a half years later and I think the purpose has finally begun to bud. Before jumping to the end, however, let’s start at the beginning. The reason for the name; the main points that remain despite the elements that have shifted.
Lucy was my first four-legged companion. She is the namesake for this blog that emerged out of the ashes of a break-up that left me with nothing. But I always had Lucy. She was my one little constant in life, the companion I could always depend on and keep me moving forward even when I felt like I didn’t know where forward would take me (having something to care for in times of depression is an invaluable thing, and Lucy was mine many times).
The story that used to be here was the story of how Lucy came into my life. It was long and detailed every bit of information I could pull out of my hippocampus and manifest into digitized words. It discussed how I had found her and went on a “wild goose chase” as I put it, to actually adopt her.
But here’s the meaning behind it all; the main point: I came across her by chance. I went leaps and bounds to make sure I could incorporate her in my life. And the companionship she gave me over the years was so meaningful and unwavering, at first it was a cute name for a blog. Now it continues to be a bittersweet reminder of her memory and the continued name for what this site has become: a way to express and share my passions and a little bit of myself with the world.
Lucy was a pound pup. She first entered my life in May 2009. She lived a life full of walks, barks, butterfly shadow excursions, sprinkler head attacks (and defeats), snuggles on beds and couches, Olympic-level sprints after much despised baths. She loved so much of life until her body slowly deteriorated, and with it her mental capacity. She was cared for by the best veterinarian and the best vet specialist, and though I wish I could have done more, I know I did all that I could to prolong her life while there was quality.
Friday, April 13th, 2018 was the worst day of my life with Lucy and seeing what her illness had lead her to. I never wanted to see her go through another minute of what she endured that evening with me once I got home from work. What started as, “I’m not sure she’ll last another week…” to “I’m not sure she’ll last the weekend…” turned into to “I’m not sure we’ll make it through the night…” within a few hours of being home with her.
We did, but just enough so that we could have our vet be the one to release her from her suffering, the next day. Here it is months later and I still find myself shedding tears just thinking about how awful I felt for her, and though it has been so heartbreaking to lose her, I am so thankful she is at peace.
I didn’t mean for the story to go this way.
While this blog may not necessarily become about the journeys my little Lucy and I take anymore, it has transitioned into a broadcast of my life’s passions while continuing to be a reminder of the little pup I have loved so dearly. Animals have always been dear to my heart, and I continue to support shelter pets by adopting and taking one less pet off the streets in hopes to give them a good life.
So now you know the story and the reason behind the name of my site. While it’s initial purpose was ambiguous during Lucy’s life, I am happy I can keep her part of it and a little bit of her living, though she is physically gone from this world.
Let your passions for life evolve and cherish the little constants that support you along the way.
xoxo – Sam & Luce
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